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Saturday, December 31, 2011

Saddest Blog Yet

I suppose it is time. I've been avoiding it. I've been thinking somehow this made it even more official. Not really sure....
A lot of people know, but I know there are a lot of others who don't. How do you tell a mass amount of people something like this? In our media age, do I send handwritten letters to everyone who I care about, but haven't exactly talked to in person in the last few months? I don't know. I don't even know if it's appropriate to blog, but this is my way of avoiding that awkward conversation that inevitably arises when I run into someone or they see something "strange" going on.
I'm extremely sad to write that Nick and I are getting divorced. It is incredibly tragic and a loss I cannot begin to describe. We've been separated for over 6 months and Kya and I have actually moved to Lampasas in the hill country were I was able to get an elementary teaching position.
There is a reason God doesn't like divorce; the division of two joined together, should not be separated and at times has felt like losing all my appendages would have been easier and less painful. Our loving Father does not like his children in this kind of pain.
I will refrain from salacious details as it is quite honestly, private and out of regard towards Nick. He is Kya's father and I will always try my hardest to respect and protect that.
I just ask for prayer. The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and I know His everlasting, loving arms have been around Kya and me during this time! However, there seems no happy ending to this and no child should ever have to go through this. Please pray for Kya, that her spirit is strengthened and protected, that she will rise on wings of eagles and not stumble because of this. Please also pray that Nick and I will act in the fruits of the spirit during this extremely hard time.
blessings, tawny
James 1:2-4
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
1 Peter 5:10
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. 11 To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.


Cindy said...

We love you and Nick and Kya dearly, Tawny. All of you are always in our prayers.

Stacey Gaines (Wisdom) said...

sweet Tawny...I'm praying for you. I know this couldn't have been easy to share, but I pray that the Lord will begin to heal your tender heart in ways that only He can!

Laura Bartlett said...

Tawny you are in my prayers. Having traveled this road before, I always said I would not wish it on anyone. I understand your heartbreak and I applaud your strength. God is Good! Love you Laura.

Alene said...

Dear friend, my heart is sad for you! Lifting up prayers for you and your precious little one. May blessings abound more and more in 2012.

Susan Chilcoat said...

Tawny, you are one of the strongest and most loving people that I know. You will be an amazing role model for your daughter and show here how, with God's help, you can get through anything. Love you!! Susan

Anonymous said...

I had a feeling about this. I am very sad to hear my fear confirmed. I do know how very painful divorce is. If there is anything I can do to help you, please let me know. I will be praying for you, Kya and Nick. I know God has a plan for each of you. May He lift you up and carry you through the pain. Love you! Donna

PeaceCory said...

I have so much I wish I could say to you, my sweet and beautiful cousin. Here is just not necessarily the most appropriate place. I hate that I didn't get to see you before leaving and hope to spend some quality time with you soon... though I know that will be difficult.

Just know that because of a marriage that just wasn't quite right anymore, our family was blessed with you and Keely. And, had it not been for the door closing on one relationship, the window that blessed our family with Bill would not have opened. I love that the Universe knows how to bring us each exactly what we need and only once we are ready for it.

I love you and wish nothing but the best for you and that precious little girl of yours. I hope to read more of your blog in the future! I'm so glad to have found it!!!